“Errors of Expulsion” (2022–2023)
“Errors of Expulsion” is a body of work created between 2022 and 2023. I have long suffered from an eating disorder. I feel intensely in my body the sensation of my stomach and my insides becoming empty. It feels like drawing close to death. Yet at the same time, when I feel that body, I also feel a strong life force within myself. I came to recognize that this contradiction is my very existence. The sensation of hammering metal plates into three-dimensional form is also very close to this feeling. The hare and the fallen plants (seed and camellias) are motifs overlaid onto myself.
As people, we take in the elements needed for survival day after day, and then we discharge them.
We live with this repeating cycle of life and death passing through us. At times, I fail to perform this series of actions smoothly, coming to realize my own life within the emptiness of my being. Though accompanied by pain, that memory has shaped who I am.
For this work, I drilled a hole in the berry motif, packed it with pine resin, executed chiseling work, and then emptied the resin out again—a process I repeated dozens of times. This closely mirrored how we live, embodying the voids within both body and mind. It ultimately took on my own shape, becoming my salvation.
